Bubbly

yes im in a good mood, weird isnt it?

its probably in due part to feeling extremely smart.

in a fashion, i now COMPLETELY understand all of my chemistry. it was as simple as outlining chapter five and chapter six...answering the questions AND studying the stuff he gave us in class. Now i can do the homework! yes!

but i feel really weird. i mean, im a fuckin veteran at Saturday Schools. And usually, when i have one, i dont even bring my bag cause its just extra weight, and i spend the entire three hours just trying to sleep.

this time, i had a book and pens and paper and everything. and i only nodded off for a second. it was kinda....fun, dare i say? yes it twas but i deff dont want to do it again. im kinda over this getting into trouble thing.

i mean, yes it was funny and i still think its BA, but now its just getting old.
i mean...i'm full of detentions and saturday schools and now everyone expects it. that is SO annoying, but whatever.

im in such a good mood and i think the reason is because i was up and ready early, i got a lot of sleep, i have a feeling of accomplishment, and my mom hasnt been home all day.

granted, certain things still suck ass. For instance, i get home last night to find my parents laughing and watching television together. I'm letting them think that im okay with it, but i hate this. IM NOT GOING TO LET IT BOTHER ME! because im a kid.

but why is it that they treat me like an adult when i want to be a child, but im too young when i actually WANT the responsbility?

i have no clue if that made sense.
but whatever. i'll finish this later i dont feel like just sitting here. time to dance around and sing? yes good idea!