Boho Days

So this is why they call it "the best time of our lives"

Because we are entering the ability to succeed and to make success.

To be successful. what is it, anyways? each of us have our own idea of success and how we picture it. personally, i would be successful if i successfully manage not to go crazy and successfully commit suicide during this stressful time of my life. you see? all i want is success, but doesnt everybody? and if everybody has it...then i probably wont want it anymore.

Two jobs.
BlackWater
CVS

Permit.
I want to learn to play the flute
I want to learn to read music

I am doing Winter Guard International.
I am trying to have a relationship with a boy i really like.
My room is not clean.
my grades are, granted, unsuccessful, but, mind you, im trying!!

I have my Rollins app complete [minus the Fafsa and final transcript]
I yearn for Columbia and swithcing ym schedule.
I still have the most amazing and supportive friends ever. no really, i do.

Krystal is still with Bob. Lucy is still with Joe. Kat is still with Aidan and Lisa is still with Sylvan. These things dont end. when they do, you'll know. the world will collapse from within; and then it'll start back up again and continue aimlessly to make the same mistake. Thats life. That's wizards chess. oops.

An old friend gets caught smoking weed. i get caught smelling like cigarettes. Missy gets pregnant and Mommy gets working on my birthday party.

this is the life, bo bo bo bo bo, this is the life, no no no no no. is this the life?

hysteria? kill me now. im actually having fun, but its kinda bittersweet. because im just gonna be miserable eventually. and then pick it back up and then fall again. thats life?

why is everything so complicated?

i swear im not in a depressed mood. im actually substantially great. seriously. lol. ttyl. i want a bagel!